Grandma goes to Jesus. Reflections Week 3.

As I was driving out of Windy Gap, being disconnected from life, my parents had called and told me that my grandmother had a stroke week 2. She passed away on Saturday. My grandfather, Amos, died when I was 16, when I was at Windy Gap as a camper. My grandmother, Esther, died when I was 26, when I was at Windy Gap on assignment. Mixed emotions. I wrote my grandmother a letter explaining my feelings of our estranged relationship due to a family fallout, not involving my immediate family. The lack of communication really burdened my heart. The Lord prompted communication on my part without any expectation of a response. A letter received. Through tears I shared this letter with my dad without knowing that this would be my last communication with my grandmother before her death. I am so thankful that I followed God's calling to write my grandmother. Reconciliation. The Lord knew the devastation and regret that I would of experienced had I not been prompted and obedient in time. A life lived. Lived well? I pray that I will see Grandma at the heavenly gates and we will get to experience a great RECONCILIATION far greater than our relationship- our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, my Savior.

"Our heart's desire is to glorify your name. My soul yearns for you in the night; in the morning my spirit longs for you." Isaiah 26:8-9

I have been doing a lot of reflection over the past few days. As I transition from being at Windy Gap on assignment into starting the goodbye's in Charleston to moving on Saturday to Lenoir City, I am overwhelmed by the presence of the Lord. I have been awaken in the middle of the night in prayer. I have cried out to the Lord, as my soul yearns for Him. In the mornings I have been seeking sweet time with the Lord. Leaving Windy Gap with the experience that I had was soul filling. I experienced the Lord in a new way as I embraced Christ indwelling within my high school friends, watching them love well, overwhelmed by their innocence and child-like faith, embracing challenges, relationships, laughter and worship, repetitive jobs, packed schedule, intentional conversations, spontaneous and random moments turned really sweet, for the first time becoming a part of behind the scenes, and being a part of something bigger than myself!

I yearn for moments that remind me of time spent at Windy Gap, but more than that I yearn for more of Him!